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Epilogue

Chapter 30, Step 21 The final step

Song: Ingrid Michaelson –Can’t help falling in love with you

Life is important.You never know truly how important it is until someone close to you goes.I should know ,I Iost my true love 1 year ago…..

I never got the chance to tell Zayn that at that moment I was carrying his child. Our baby who would never know its father because of how evil and cruel one person could be ,to take away another person’s life.I will never get the chance to hear his laugh , him calling my name , his voice, these where all of the things I missed  most about him , my Zayn the only man I have ever loved had left me to face this unknown world on my own……..

Seeing the picture of my 12 week scan of my baby girl, from that moment hearing her heart beat I knew she was special and I knew I had to protect her. She was the reason why I kept myself together, I got up in the morning because of her , I brushed and washed because of her and I ate because of her , but what I  didn’t do was go outside , I refused to step out of my apartment knowing that I wouldn’t be accepted in society because of what I had chosen to do, To keep my baby because that was the only thing that remained me of him, my Zayn the only boy I cared about and he was cruelly taken away from me .I owed it to myself and him to keep our daughter safe .

Holding my baby girl in my arms only reassured me that I made the right choice, and I could never give her up for adoption. There were so many resemblances of Zayn in her , the way she smiled and Zayn’s beautiful hazel brown eyes where the spitting image of her own .She was so precious , if only Zayn could be here to watch her grow .Part of me felt like I didn’t deserve to have her with me after all I was once like my dad ,I resented people for reasons that they couldn’t control. That was why I decided to bring up my daughter with a opened mind and to not judge people .

To help me get over my pain, every month I would write letters to Zayn.I knew he’ll never get the chance to ever read them , but some how it was helping me.I write everything from what I loved about him and how I miss him.Even silly things like how my day has been ,who Ive seen and what I’m wearing. I felt as if my life would never be the same again.

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15 year’s later

 At 34 , I still thought I knew what life was all about.Sadly I was wrong.What if one day, you woke up and everything from your past was just a painful memory, would you still want to be alive? This was what I had been feeling for some time, nothing felt the same anymore, my life felt empty and not needed. In the society that we live in there are evil people in the mask of good and they prey on the living.I loved you very much and I would have given my life to you. You had such a gentle and carrying soul , I guess that was what drew me to you.It wasn’t the colour of your  skin that mattered to me but it was who you were inside.

My father and brother  eventually got sentenced to jail  for 25 years for murder.I remember looking into your eyes and seeing you slipping away from me , it was in that movement that I realised what true love really was , love sees no colour .

 Grace means “Elegance, and kindness and a blessing from God “.But those where never the reason for why I named you .Grace was the last word that I remember you saying to me.I guess it stuck in my head and that’s when I knew that I would name our daughter that.I know you would have loved her and been there for her.There is never a day that goes by that I don’t think about what might have been if you where still with me. Someday I hope you will understand my actions and you will understand why I did what i did,love is a funny thing  you never know how special it is until you loose it and I guess all this time I was following the wrong  steps towards finding love because lets be honest with ourselves falling in love is the easy part but giving your heart to a person isn’t .

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Out of all the pain and suffering that I had to endure, something special happened.I realised I had a love for writing.After writing you all those letters I decided to make it into a book about my life.And what better way to do it than start from the begging , the day that I met you.I never realised how my life would change after becoming an author.

When people tell me that they love my books and how it speaks to them, it only helps me to realise how much in love we used to be .I know we where only 18 years of age but I knew from day one that you where my soul mate.Every year on your birthday , I and Grace lay flowers on your tomb stone.I tell her something special about you .Even though she never got to know you, I still don’t want her to ever forget you.You can never be replaced in my heart , you where the one man that opened my eyes.People always ask me if I ever got over you and I always tell them no.

After all these are the steps of how I fell in love .It took me 21 steps to realise it , I was  never going to stop falling in love with you……

Writers Note: This was the final chapter, 21 steps till I fall in love with you is now over.Hope everyone enjoyed this fanfic.It was a risky fanfiction, but we both had fun writing the chapters.We tried to make this fanfiction as realistic as possible.For now we are both going to take a break from writing fanfics and tumblr for a while.Let us know what you thought of this fanfic and any ideas for new fanfics for the future.By guys and thanks again.

Sheryl and Darcy xx

Chapter 29, Step 20 the Future

2 weeks later

Song: Snow patrol –chasing cars

Writers Note:Hi guys, hope you like this chapter.This is our favourite chapter yet.Warning , you may need tissues .xx

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“Hey, I’m glad I caught up with you” I said to Hannah.Since our breakup, being just friends with Hannah was different but nice.It was as if she was a completely different person and so was I.I could tell her anything and so could she.I felt so bad about her family situation, I knew I needed to do something to help.But just what I could do was what I wasn’t sure about.

“Today probably is one of my better days.”

I’m glad to hear it.Have you heard about Louis and Haley finally getting back together?

“Yeah I have, it wasn’t a big surprise for me that they where dating in the first place.”

So what you knew?

“God no, I only found out when my sister Holly told me.”

Its funny how everyone knew about them , excepts for people close to them.

“Yeah I’d say, so why did you ask me to meet you” asked Hannah.

I have some good news for you.

“Okay, tell me “ .Hannah said whilst playfully hitting me.

Well I talked to my step dad about your dad situation.Well he talked some things with his co workers and they may have a job for your dad.I mean they do,your dad can start from next week and it means you can slowly pay off your debt.

“Harry, I don’t believe this.Thank You “,Hannah said as she tightly hugged me.”I cant believe you would do this for me”.

Of course I’d do this,I care about you.I should have never broken up with you.I get why you didn’t tell me what you where going through.I just want you to know , I would never look down at you, I’ve always seen you as the kind hearted girl.What I am trying to say is ,I want us to be a couple again.So what do you say?

Fingers crossed I hoped she would give us another chance.

“Harry of course,I miss you , I miss us.I want to give things another go.”

I was so relieved that Hannah said yes, it looked as if taking Haley’s sort of advice actually payed off for me.The next two weeks, me and Hannah where always around each other.Her dad started working for my dads company and everything seemed to be going great.Right now everyone was waiting for the return of Zayn.

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The next two weeks went quickly; Zayn and I were stronger than ever and he was coming back from judges houses.He refused to tell me whether he got into the the live shows .What he did promise was to tell me when he got back.And today was the day. For three days I was so nervous, I really hoped he got through.Today I was  meeting up with Zayn to hear his news.Being away from him for so long made me realise how much I had missed being around him. When  I got out of the taxi , I was speechless.

There he was as handsome as ever with his hair all jelled up in a quiff.He looked so handsome; he was finally home and we could be together again.

 I pulled him into a big hug when he approached me, neither of us  said anything for a while, we just enjoyed being in each the others arms once again.

“I love you,” I whispered into his ear.

“I love you too,” He said back and he must have felt me smiling against his chest. Today I was the happiest girl in the world.

“God I’ve missed hugging you”, he said as he pulled away from the embrace and stepped back.

I am pretty sure I missed you more, I bet plenty girls where flocking themselves around you.

“Even if that was true which it isn’t , I would only want to be around just one girl and that’s you”.

So are you going to tell me the good news or will I have to die of waiting”, I said to Zayn as I pretended to be dying which made Zayn laugh.

“All in good time my love, I want to just enjoy spending the whole day with my beautiful girlfriend .”

As Zayn held my hand for comfort the pit of my stomach felt like it was about to erupt.

“Is everything alright babe?”

Yeah, I guess I am just really hungry, I said as I rubbed my stomach.

We continued to walk around for a bit when we reached a near by McDonald’s.

“I can’t let my girl go hungry so we can make a quick stop here.”

I really love you Zayn, I never want to be away from you for so long,” I said as a tear fell to my cheek.

“Don’t worry babe I am not going anywhere, you go inside and wait for me I just need to go and take some money out,” Zayn said as he kissed the top of my forehead.

Just as I went inside McDonald’s I heard the sound of a gun shot from outside. Everyone was screaming and crying and rushing towards the injured person.I crept outside wondering if the person was okay.

 Zayn!!!…. I yelled as he was lying on the floor lifeless .I pushed my way closer to where he was ,my mind quickly began to race this couldn’t be happening .

 No …get up …..Please, I pleaded as I placed my hand on his chest. Please don’t leave me, I’m nothing without you.Zayn softly caressed my face .

 “I will never leave you, come closer “, said Zayn .

I came closer like he had asked me to and he kissed me without any passion. “ I love you more than anything your my grace in this life “said Zayn .

I stood there as he quickly slipped away from me, this wasn’t my Zayn he wasn’t this person who was lifeless in front of me. “Don’t leave me Zayn, “I..-I….I, I wailed as I rocked back and forth, I was left to be  comforted by strangers who where trying to pull me away from Zayn.

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